Here we are again, another year has passed and it's time to reflect. And I have been doing a lot of that I can tell you.
Last year, my theme was EXPLORE . I felt strongly that I needed to push myself and experiment more. I did and I learned that I can and want to include more fabrics, papers and embellishments in my illustrations. It gives me a freedom that I didn't have before so for that I'm grateful.
Also, I went to New York for the first time ever..and I flew alone!
That was definitely a form of exploration for me.
But what about this year? I have had such a hard time pinpointing a theme. I thought I had finally decided that it would be, DREAMS COME TRUE, but there's more to it than that for me this year.
I'm a firm believer that dreams do come true but it takes a lot more backbone than wishbone. Dreams don't come true just because we want them to, we have to work at it. And they certainly don't always come true when we want them to. I have accomplished way more than I could ever have imagined when I first started pursuing illustration in 2000. But my journey has been slow and although I had some fun assignments this past year, I didn't advance as much as I had hoped.
Roz "2000" would really be giving Roz "2008" a good kick in the arse if she read this because she'd see her as being ungrateful. But I'm not.
Doors really didn't start opening for me until I started working in felt in 2006. So much happened that first year that I felt like I had finally nailed it! The felt was unique enough to open the doors but because of its uniqueness, the need for it is less. And therein lies the rub.
But lets get to the core of how DREAMS COME TRUE.
It's very proactive. When you trust, you're not blocking yourself with self doubt and frustration. I did too much of that last year and I lost my peace. This year I'm going to practice "letting go". If I know that I'm doing everything I can towards making my dreams a reality, then I need to relax. That alone can be very empowering. I drove myself crazy with the wishing, striving and wanting last year. So much wasted mental energy and I'm tired. I want to enjoy the process and trust that I will get there eventually and most importantly believe that I'm where I'm supposed to be right now. Life's too short.
TRUST. That's my theme.